I am taking today as an excuse to vent against whatever idiocy created migraines. Currently, I am in the early stages of a migraine & PRAYING that these drugs I have been popping for the past 2 days will kick in and kill this pain. Otherwise, my intelligence will drop exponentially & I despise that.
As it is, I am chilled, head pounding, feel band tightening with each heart beat, eyes trying to implode, hair too heavy, hands so cold, ears hurt & hideous ringing, can't focus vision, visually tracking anything is hard, and I HATE THIS!
Beyond this rather annoying level of pain, I am officially in bankruptcy. I am surprisingly relieved. No more creditors calling me. My cell phone bill will drop dramatically. All I have to do now is pay off my cell phone bill entirely, and then I will be entirely caught up. Once I am stable, I will probably sign up for Netflix and generally let anything resembling a life devolve even further.
Before I get Netflix though I intend to go to the Jacksonville Zoo one day soon. Then next spring I am taking off for the Atlanta Renaissance Festival. Maybe even the Nashville Zoo & Aquarium if gas prices decide to go down to tolerably painful.
I read this story on three-scores blog. It was enough to make me wonder why the hell is the media not covering more positive stories? I read more positive stories in the latest 2 People mags than I have on the news sites. What is it about our society that blood and gore are what sells? I know it is sad, but part of the reason I watch the ridiculous cartoons like the hideous Barbie movies, Hello, Cutie! DVD's, Strawberry Shortcake abominations, and other cutesy things is because they are ridiculously sweet and happy and nothing bad really happens. Even the bad stuff isn't bad. After watching the news detail the latest drive by shutting with the obligatory blood soaked sheet, side walk, cars, grass & buildings, something revoltingly sweet and happy makes me feel better.
To reassure everyone, I also watch movies like the Transporter, the Professional, the original Highlander, Lord of the Rings trilogy, Sixth Sense, X-Men, Army of the Dead, and so on. I do like my blood & guts & mindless violence. I just do not want my violence to be real. Not fake to the point you can see the plastic tubes, but fake.
Ugh. Hate the occasional pretty color flashes. They hurt and they blind me temporarily. Bad Bad Bad Definitely do not like how IQ drops. Really hate pain. Lights are off so that's good. Dread drive to Mom's. Once there can crash, but must get there 1st. Ugh.
My porn movies always have happy endings and nobody gets killed or beaten up. ;)
ReplyDeleteAs for your migrane, my condolensces. I had one in my entire life and wanted to die. It was the worst pain I felt since I tore both of my knees eleven years ago.
Thank you both, but zombieslayer, I am flat out jealous that you have had only 1 migraine in your life. I'm thrilled to have them only once every 6 months or so compared to the 1 a month of a few years ago. I am as green as your pic with jealousy.
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